I'm in a bog mess,'coz sometimes comes back in my mind a boy who i have loved last year. He was beautiful,very tall,slim,blond,light-blue eyes,nice nose (bulbous nose,idk if it's correct!!),he was from Poland...so,a very nice face! I didn't talk very much with him,even better,seldom,'cause i was too shy. But the bader part is that he didn't love me,and he'll never love me,i know it! Sometimes i don't think to him,but in other situation,i start to think to him,and it's sooo sad,because i know that HE DOESN'T LOVE ME,HE WILL NEVER COME BACK TO ME,HE'S GONE FOR EVER. I must to underst this,i must to stay strong,I MUST TO FORGET HIM. Pheraps i was,and sometimes i am,addicted to him,'cause he's Polish,from East Europe.....but it isn't easy,'coz almost every day i see the place when he's livin' ): I need to change place,but i don't know where to go,because i'm jst 15 and i have no the needful for to live in another house and town ): i'm not looking forward to change city and specially to forget him.But sometimes i ask to me if i'll find a boy or a man like him. I'm so sick of this situation.